"The Feel Good Song Of The Year"

I never thought the day would come when I
Would be the poison in the pen I use to write
You said you were alone in somewhat of a nervous tone
I guess it was the blank look on your face that was easy to replace

So then I went and drank myself into an idiot all through the night
Recounting all my paranoid and selfish thoughts but I was right

I made a space for you inside my soul
And let my feelings kill the part that I control
So part of you was me, neglectful maybe cold it seemed
Despite having the wounds we both imbibe, the scars are
Somewhere we can't hide

I then stayed up for two more years just thinking of the sacrifice you made
Indifferent to the reason so apparent in the pain
I polished off another drink and taught myself to numb and drift away
For one more night so I could justify the day

So now I entertain the thought of going on all alone
But you are all the life I've ever known

I swear one day I'll get it back something that is already dead and gone
Again i see the trumpet player looking for his song
Don't worry I won't follow you, that part of me is learning to let got
What was a space is like a cancer in my soul

"The Trumpet Player"

Always in the way, I think I've had enough of this
Why is everyone so cold and lonely?
Here I go again, I'll try releting to the selfishly absurd

Take me for a ride and leave me somewhere I can live
Without feeling everybody's sorrow
I want to feel the numbness that surrounds most of our hearts
To feel like I am normal while ripping lives apart

Somewhere on the way to degradation
I met a man who put me in my place
He said,"You will not see me
You'll know the truth when you hear this trumpet play"

Doctor can you give me something for my state of mind?
If we're all on the same pill it's alright
'Sorry son you'll have to walk this bridge without a crutch
We're out of medication, the world is out of love"

Just then I heard something from the distance
The trumpet player sitting on the hill
He said "I really do not have an answer now"
Then vanished standing still

In the face on everyone I saw a little madness
And decided not to be part of that scene
The only way it seemed

Always on the wrong side of affection
We step on heads to get mere than we need
Never understanding the afterglow
The reflection of our greed

"This Ain't No Way To Live"

Everything I've tried has been worthless
And I don want to die in search of something better
Dropped the ball and threw the towel in
Walked the fence and failed the challenge

This aint no way to live
This aint no way to live

This is not the way things are supposed to be I noticed
Maybe its just me but it really seems its hopeless
Things are not the way I planned them
Avoid disasters, but they still happen
Dropped the ball and threw the towel in
Failed the challenge

This aint no way to live
This aint no way to live

I dont know where things went wrong
Maybe i'll move to North Korea
Run away and never see again

This aint no way to live (Dont know where things went)
This aint no way to live (Dont know where things went wrong)

"Ontario"

Dim light, saw you sleeping
The door is open waiting to be closed
And it's warm in this little room
But December is so cold
Waking to a nightmare
Passing out and hoping for a dream
That will bring back his memory

And everything you wanted was so close to you that night
I don't know how you could have dealt with this
But nothing could prepare you for that risk

Reliving every minute
Makes the moment seem further away
Unimaginable for me
The room with the blue paint
No words can repair this
So why do people still talk about faith
When it's proven to be nothing great

Now everyday reminds you of what could and should have been
I cannot find a last line to this song
Oh Yeah! Please remember
It must go on...

"Pacific Standard Time"

Sleep is also known as i'm awake
Addicted to the easy life that everybody hates
I wonder should i call you or just stare in space again
There's always a beginning on your end

Somebody get me off this lonely sad parade
The differences a hundred miles but a couple months away
I'm saying hello just to say goodbye

You must be tired of waiting
Or making plans to go
Somewhere between an empty feeling and the worst one that you know
But i am saving every photograph of you
So every lie i live i see the truth

Cold december just got on the board
And every noise reminds me of the suitcase by the door
I wonder should i wake you up, i watch tv instead
These idiots are making me forget

How much you always forgive everything i do
The time and space begin of certain if i'm coming back to you
I'm saying this to let you know i try

You must be tired of waiting
Or making plans to go
Somewhere between an empty feeling and the worst one that you know
But i am saving every photograph of you
So every lie i live i see the truth

Somebody get me off this lonely sad parade
The differences a hundred miles but a couple months away
I'm saying hello just to say goodbye

"The Dregs Of Sobriety"

I hope someday that we can sit and talk above the surface
For now I'm drowning in a sea of you
The irony of alcohol and this conversation piece
Is exactly what we need to keep us from the truth

So let me sit here all alone and contemplate the meaning
Of a situation made up in your mind
You're so damn miserable and careless with your
Darkest thoughts
You act as if your clock is fooling time

Say hello to routine life and goodbye to the vacation
I haven't thought about you in two days
The more I see the in between the more I want to leave
But it keeps on closing in to the tune of selfish ways

In your ashtray is the answer to all the questions that
You had to prove
We are not going to keep moving forward in our sleep
Can you save us? Would you dare?
In a place where you refuse to care

"Night Of The Living Living"

And so much can change in a second when everybody's
Hiding the truth
An eternal quest for some happiness is there anything we
Won't screw?

Like a loaded gun if it sits too long, eventually you'll work
Up the nerve
To abandon your herd

We got these remedies for insecurities that nobody is
Listening to
All the mournful cries of the less fortunate are so easy to
Say and not to

Like a funeral march in the summer sun, it's beautiful for
Something so sad
Concentrating on the things we can't have

We all live in a cage without space to use our heads
I'm more scared of the living than the dead

In a hospital counting every breath, are you happy with no
One in you life?
As long as up to this point you were right
But living scared is just no way to die

"Kill The Rich"

The sky is still falling, is there any end in sight?
And some are talking to themselves as missiles fly
Through the night
But in the beginning there were words with half a cause
Now everyone is singing it and waiting for the applause

They don't think about you when the payments keep on coming
But only to use you for a way

To make themselves appear like an angel in the room
They soothe their guilty conscience and tell it what to do
Synthetic compassion and some poor-mouth bad advice
To get ahead they lay in bed and sleep safe all through the night

A million to nothing, like zombies they are frightening
Just smile and wave and pass on by
Denial is so strong but the guilt just keeps it going
And give them a reason to say "hi"

"Take It Home"

Nobody is talking about the hazy sky
"Have the mountains gotten smaller
Or is the water getting high?"
There's a light up on the hill, illuminating glow
I think I want to go

But the light that keeps on burning
Is on the same page you've been turning
Ignorance for some is just a way of life
There is no message I am sending just this thought process I own
It's time to take it home

Looking at the valley where everybody grinds
I understand the purpose but there is no end in sight
There's a little voice inside that tells us what to do
How did we get this screwed?

But the light that keeps on burning
Is on the same page you've been turning
Ignorance for some is just a way of life
There is no message I am sending just this thought process I own
It's time to take it home
Take it home

"We now return you to the music of Raman Raquello playing for you in the Maderian Room of the Park Plaza Hotel situated in downtown New York."